GRACE IN THE MIRACLE
"My Grace is sufficient for you, for my power is made perfect in weakness" - 2 Corinthians 12:9
From a young age, I was told having children may never happen at all but if it did, it certainly wouldn't be natural and would most definitely be a challenge. But even from that young age, I held so tightly to the dream that one day I would have my own children. One day I’d naturally conceive a baby of my own through the grace of God. The grace of God that is undeserved, a grace that isn’t something that is earned but freely given - an undeserved favor.
After hearing the news that to have a child would be hard, with a broken heart and foggy mind, I had found myself asking God the whys. A faith questioning moment. But with a constant prayer and faith, that God is a God of the impossible, I held onto the grace of God. The grace of God - this undeserved favor that isn't earned but freely given. I believed, not in what the world was telling, but in what the God of miracles can do.
Today, I look at my miracle and laugh. By the undeserved grace of God, I am now a mum of a beautiful, naturally conceived, 8-week-old baby. As I ponder, I wonder why, when God so freely gives us grace, how we as Christians can’t or won't give ourselves this same grace. I want to move effortlessly and with elegance into motherhood, instead, I find myself searching for a new grace for myself. To have grace for my body as it changes, grace for the sleepless nights, grace for missing the freedom I once had. I find myself setting high expectations to be the best mum, perfect wife and great friend, all while rediscovering who I am....
And then God’s grace whispers to my heart, I am enough, you'll see.